Crush

Few days back I talked to my childhood days crush, I mean like when I was a toddler. Guess what could be your Brobdingnagian nightmare ......no not that easy.....

I talked to her for some time we shared few pleasantries I had my hopes bagged on her things were going on smooth. It happened like I had in my thoughts, she was grown and better ..Come on who am I kidding she was beyond I could ever imagine and on top of that she is almost a doctor (will be soon).

She was really nice to me and I am not bragging but she sounded as beautiful as she looked. I was just like I had always been not really positive but my heart was pounding and blood was rushing to my head like lightning ready to fuse the little bulb I have on the top of my body. I tried to keep it cool but I couldn't hold the dam much before exploding I asked her the most important question, I would like to remind you the situation clearly before striking on the gong. I had never talked to this girl when I was a kid, I mean like never ever. I was fortunate that she knew I ever existed. It was after 10 years she came to know that I was still alive. So here I was waiting for my omega moment I asked her "do you have a bf?” 

What could have been the response??? You know if we think that whatever we want to do will succeed in that, not really true. I was buffeted by the response I got. Yeah yeah she has a BF so what big deal.  Like I said she never knew anything and I was not strong enough (however strong I may look) to hold it, I told her about my crush anyways. Yeah that’s true I was being selfish I just wanted to lift off the load from my chest. It was really nice of her, she still asked for my number and ...lol I had to give it.

I know and most of you guys also must have got the hint it was much more than just a crush. I am still swinging like a pendulum under all the ideal conditions you could imagine, not damping never trying to stop....I hope there is way I can stop myself. I don’t want to lose the battle even before giving it a shot. 

America u suck.....

Have you ever dreamt of going to america or USA to be precise, living there, been facinated or lured by the life. You may say you wont but the truth is you all have thought a lot about the teenage life there with chicks and Beer.

Looks are deciving the life there may not be as good as it may seem to us. I can assure you its not one of my geeky observation or any crancky one……..! well almost but its backed by second hand experience. USA is full of people(poor people) who are from middle east (uprooted because of dispute since archian period) , jews who were forced to leave their mother land because of israil-palistine unsynchronous war or because of the nazis. I just hate them I don’t adore jews that much I loath nazis. I knew this one girl Ellyot she was from israil. The migrated to USA  with little money they had. Her dad put in his soul to work there and earn bread for his family. Soon the work took over him and that bent his back he kept pushing his limits, he had nerves of steel but steel too had its limits soon he succumbed to the pressure of work there wich was multipied for him for being an israili. She had a elder brother who took a place of a palm tree when a banyan tree was expected of him, he left his family and refused to support his family. Then the little girl was about 14, yeah that is the age when most of the chicks inn US loose there flower (I guess you know what that means …..lol) . she had her kiddo bro and her mom to support. She dropped out of school and she had to take up many jobs to support and strengthen her family. There waas a ttime when she had to take 5 jobs at once. When it seemed that things were going smooth god wanted to make things worse for her. Her mom died due to prolonged cancer. Her eyes were numb , heart beating sluggishly. When she was making her sand house a big storm came to take everything from her the entire universe conspired against her. Don’t stop here when we are thinking if things could get any worse . yes it did!!!!! You must have herd “if the end is well then all is well” but in this case I would like to propose if it begins with a gauche it will end like a sinister. That was the fate she suffered, she and her little brother died in a accident. It was like her entire family was sweot from the face of earth.

I don’t know why people think that they are part of a acumen culture in USA. A culture which produces bullies and perverts and a low percentage of geeks who never get what they deserve. All those turds who think of themselves as college princes end serving those geek. Those girls I don’t want to, I don’t think they are worth to mention. They think they are living in a free and liberal country but even today they are treated like material belongings even after so many suffrogate movements nothing has moved yet. When will they get the respect they deserve?  Still have to sleep around to get jobs, increments and sometimes just to be accepted in friends. God give them some power for cerebration. For all who went there I just have one question does it worth?

In reality it is a capitalist country ruled by corprate gaints and  the people who cant even look beyond the sugar coated reality presented to them.